Today, I am trying to put the pieces back together. No, nothing tangible has broken. Instead, the pieces are specific answers that I am searching for. Trying to figure out why things happen in life the way they do.
Why a young life can be taken from this world for no apparent reason.
Why a person would drive around on drugs, after having his license revoked 4 times prior.
Why a group of kids would act upset about somebody's death only to get out of class and hang out with their friends.
Why a world breeds such ignorance and insensitivity.
Why a death should bring about the only reflection given to one's life.
Why a person's efforts in life shouldn't be rewarded more often.
Why we all can come and go at any point.
Why the world and everyone who inhabits it can't be all good-natured and warm towards one another?
Read this news article about this young girl who died when she was killed by a driver believed to be on drugs: http://www.newsday.com/news/local/suffolk/ny-lifune0225,0,3358507.story
Angelica sat in the front seat, second from the right. She always had her hand up. She always asked what more she could do to do better. She was the only student to give me a Christmas card my first year teaching. And now she'll have to be remembered only by those acts she so graciously completed during her 14 years on this cruel, unfair Earth.
Angelica was my student, and she always will be my student.
Maybe she'll help me put the puzzle together, to help me understand this cruel and unfair life, where evil always seems to triumph over good in the unfortunate end.
Monday, February 25, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Chaos & Journeys
In response to the following questions from my graduate classroom management class:
What's wrong with a little chaos in the classroom?
Do students think when they misbehave? Do they misbehave for a reason?
What daily factors make your profession difficult...and which facilitate your efforts? Name and elaborate the most important.
I think chaos in the classroom implies something is going on that is unable to be controlled or managed. Don't get me wrong, there are times when there is chaos in my classroom, but these are the times where I feel the most uneasy, where I feel the students are swinging from vines and I need to play the role of zookeeper dangling raw meat in front of them in order to get them to listen. This can be incredibly trying. On the other hand, however, there are times where I exhibit and enforce controlled chaos. This is chaos that I start, chaos that I provoke, through my inevitable tangents or longed-for (but rarely see) heated (or any form of emotion) arguments. This type of chaos can be relieving, where the entire plan is thrown out the window, but where a sense of accomplishment prevails over all of the chaos, sometimes more so than any structured lesson could have.
I think students sometimes think when they misbehave; sometimes they do not. Sometimes students will act out just to get under the teacher's last nerve, because they know they can. Other times, students will misbehave just because it is in their nature to be chatty or to be forgetful of any rules or regulations their teachers or any other prominent member of society has put on them. This latter form of misbehavior is just an act of carelessness, of not thinking "what will happen to person X if I do behavior Y?," something that can be hard for many of us to figure out.
These misbehaviors are what make my profession difficult. The road blocks that interrupt the lesson, the desired plan. However, upon reflection, the bigger picture is what facilitates my efforts in my profession from day to day. What I mean by that is, there may be little road blocks, which may seem like significant brushfires at the time (5 students asking to go to the bathroom at once, a fire drill during a crucial lesson, the student who won't stop talking), but it is the conviction to actually get past the roadblocks and achieve the goal of a lesson or unit, or to wake up the next day and drive yourself back to school at 6:50 in the morning to do it all over again, that really proves the journey worthwhile, despite all the rocks in the road.
While I was writing this, I was thinking the entire time of one 9th grade class I've been struggling with lately. They've been inattentive, rude, bored, lazy, chaotic, all of the attributes a teacher does not want to be teaching to. It's only fitting that we are studying The Odyssey in this class. Because as I am reflecting here, I am comparing myself and this class to Odysseus and his trials from the gods. All he wants to do is make it home, but he has to deal with Cyclopes, Sirens, and ship-wrecking whirlpools. In spite of all this, he doesn't give up and is able to overcome all obstacles and complete his desired journey. I suppose that's like teaching in a way, and we as teachers always have to keep our goals in mind, or we won't make it along the journey.
What's wrong with a little chaos in the classroom?
Do students think when they misbehave? Do they misbehave for a reason?
What daily factors make your profession difficult...and which facilitate your efforts? Name and elaborate the most important.
I think chaos in the classroom implies something is going on that is unable to be controlled or managed. Don't get me wrong, there are times when there is chaos in my classroom, but these are the times where I feel the most uneasy, where I feel the students are swinging from vines and I need to play the role of zookeeper dangling raw meat in front of them in order to get them to listen. This can be incredibly trying. On the other hand, however, there are times where I exhibit and enforce controlled chaos. This is chaos that I start, chaos that I provoke, through my inevitable tangents or longed-for (but rarely see) heated (or any form of emotion) arguments. This type of chaos can be relieving, where the entire plan is thrown out the window, but where a sense of accomplishment prevails over all of the chaos, sometimes more so than any structured lesson could have.
I think students sometimes think when they misbehave; sometimes they do not. Sometimes students will act out just to get under the teacher's last nerve, because they know they can. Other times, students will misbehave just because it is in their nature to be chatty or to be forgetful of any rules or regulations their teachers or any other prominent member of society has put on them. This latter form of misbehavior is just an act of carelessness, of not thinking "what will happen to person X if I do behavior Y?," something that can be hard for many of us to figure out.
These misbehaviors are what make my profession difficult. The road blocks that interrupt the lesson, the desired plan. However, upon reflection, the bigger picture is what facilitates my efforts in my profession from day to day. What I mean by that is, there may be little road blocks, which may seem like significant brushfires at the time (5 students asking to go to the bathroom at once, a fire drill during a crucial lesson, the student who won't stop talking), but it is the conviction to actually get past the roadblocks and achieve the goal of a lesson or unit, or to wake up the next day and drive yourself back to school at 6:50 in the morning to do it all over again, that really proves the journey worthwhile, despite all the rocks in the road.
While I was writing this, I was thinking the entire time of one 9th grade class I've been struggling with lately. They've been inattentive, rude, bored, lazy, chaotic, all of the attributes a teacher does not want to be teaching to. It's only fitting that we are studying The Odyssey in this class. Because as I am reflecting here, I am comparing myself and this class to Odysseus and his trials from the gods. All he wants to do is make it home, but he has to deal with Cyclopes, Sirens, and ship-wrecking whirlpools. In spite of all this, he doesn't give up and is able to overcome all obstacles and complete his desired journey. I suppose that's like teaching in a way, and we as teachers always have to keep our goals in mind, or we won't make it along the journey.
Monday, February 4, 2008
Yes, We Can
This is in response to the "Yes, We Can" Barack Obama speech and subsequent music video that was released by Will.I.Am.
I don't usually extend my political views on too many people, or on a scale of people outside a few close friends, but this video compelled me.
I think we need an inspiration to be the leader of this country. I think we should take the values of past uniters--Martin Luther King, John F. Kennedy--and together rally around a candidate who wants to rejoin the country back to the United States of America that our Founding Fathers envisioned, not the Divided States of Red and Blue that our Confounded Brothers and Sisters have incited through corrupt, immoral acts that are degrading our society.
Other countries may destroy each other through bombings and other forms of selfless dehumanizing acts, but we are destroying each other by not looking out for one another in an economical, environmental and moral sense like we should.
Barack Obama inspires the hope in me that it is possible to change a nation for the better, to change a people for the better, to unite US into a state where WE are all proud to be one, all of us as Americans.
I'm going to end this by referring to a true crusader of a united people, Martin Luther King, who I see echoed in Senator Obama's rhetoric, something the latter has been getting criticized on lately. And it is not until after it was too late that we as a country united around the rhetoric of the former, who said: "The world is all messed up. The nation is sick. Trouble is in the land. Confusion all around...But I know, somehow, that only when it is dark enough, can you see the stars."
The time is now to unite around a star whose rhetoric and beliefs are enough to enlighten a country that has been in the dark for way too long. The light begins with Barack Obama.
I don't usually extend my political views on too many people, or on a scale of people outside a few close friends, but this video compelled me.
I think we need an inspiration to be the leader of this country. I think we should take the values of past uniters--Martin Luther King, John F. Kennedy--and together rally around a candidate who wants to rejoin the country back to the United States of America that our Founding Fathers envisioned, not the Divided States of Red and Blue that our Confounded Brothers and Sisters have incited through corrupt, immoral acts that are degrading our society.
Other countries may destroy each other through bombings and other forms of selfless dehumanizing acts, but we are destroying each other by not looking out for one another in an economical, environmental and moral sense like we should.
Barack Obama inspires the hope in me that it is possible to change a nation for the better, to change a people for the better, to unite US into a state where WE are all proud to be one, all of us as Americans.
I'm going to end this by referring to a true crusader of a united people, Martin Luther King, who I see echoed in Senator Obama's rhetoric, something the latter has been getting criticized on lately. And it is not until after it was too late that we as a country united around the rhetoric of the former, who said: "The world is all messed up. The nation is sick. Trouble is in the land. Confusion all around...But I know, somehow, that only when it is dark enough, can you see the stars."
The time is now to unite around a star whose rhetoric and beliefs are enough to enlighten a country that has been in the dark for way too long. The light begins with Barack Obama.
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